Despair

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Creator God,
You who made all that ever was, or will be,
How can you can hear my plea –
In the vastness of the universe
With so many unfortunate souls
Also praying to the God of hope,
Just how do you cope?

I am so small, so insignificant,
How can you separate my voice
Dry my tears, supress my fears
And do just the same for everyone else?

You have always been there for me
Now I need you more than ever,
Will you still hear me in my distress?
Is it my faithlessness
That reigns ill fate in my family?

Take it from us Lord,
Tell me what I must do
To regain trust with you.
Miracle making God,
Hear my prayer and
Alleviate this despair.

Copyright wordz2go Oct 2017

Psalm 18:6 “In my distress I called to the Lord;
I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came before him, into his ears.”

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Imperfect Being

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Life would be easier if I were
The perfect wife and mother
With no other
Aim but to serve,
But, I am an imperfect being
In an imperfect world
Where my anger unfurls
Its flag
To fly in your face,
With no thought of remorse,
Until it’s too late.

I am perfectly capable
Of screwing up,
Of a fast gallop
Down the wrong track;
But, as imperfect as I am,
I’m not totally lost,
Though the cost
To my worth
When I stop to reflect,
Often wrecks my peace
Of mind.

Yet God is working in me!
I’m an incomplete project,
Subject to checks
By a God who protects
My imperfect soul
As it strives for protection
Admist self-destruction.
God’s infinite patience
For one such as me
Reflects His perfect
Divinity.

Copyright wordz2Go Sept 2017

Isaiah 43:2 – The Message (MSG)
“But I, yes I, am the one
 who takes care of your sins – that’s what I do.
 I don’t keep a list of your sins.”

Kit

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I’m so excited because
I finally have a little dog of my own
After waiting 30 years while working for a living!
We chose you Kit,
You are simply gorgeous and when you come
Out of your shell you’ll love us too.

You entered our home and heart today,
Slipped out of your travel crate
Cautiously and slowly,
Turning your head away,
Looking cute in your brand spanking new pink collar.
One tiny step at a time you came out,
Walked towards me and I was lost
In your enormous soulful eyes.
Your refusal to eat or drink worries me
But Dr. Google tells me it’s normal
And not to worry yet.
Five hours later and you’ve jumped
Onto the sofa and into my lap,
I’m in heaven!
Still not drinking
But you’ve walked inquisitively round the garden,
Scared yourself silly at the life-size plastic pigs,
Walked warily up to the large resin tortoise in amongst the herbs
And ran away from the roosting pigeons!

And so to bed. Your crate in my room.
Hope you can settle to sleep.
Welcome home little Kit.
We love you already.

Copyright wordz2Go Jun 2107

12 months on: I Know

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Your cross around my neck
Has soothed my soul:
This past year,
I’ve held it in prayer,
And slowly adapted
Without you.
Walking into your room
I feel your presence;
Unseen, for now,
‘Though you’ve never left
And we were blessed,
I know.

I pictured you there
When we moved home,
Pleased for us:
Flags waving,
Cheerfully embracing,
Selfish, I know.
By the grace of God
You’ll watch from above,
Fully healed,
Running free
And though we can’t see;
I know.

Copyright wordz2Go Jun 13 2017
Titus 1:1-3 ‘Hope of eternal life is based on God’s promise.  And God cannot lie.’

Children Grow

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We abdicate responsibility,
Give up whole lives willingly,
Devote an excess of time to inconsequential things,
Forsake family and friends
Seeking approbation or promotion,
Confidently assured of time.

Life is worth far more than work,
Office politics drive you berserk,
Ever changing goals impossible to meet,
Time spent chasing them
Invisibly robs peace of mind
And children grow as we borrow time.

Time will only wait so long,
How can we get it so wrong?
How much time to realise our time is now,
Do more of what you love,
Regain your peace and cease;
Work less and embrace life now.

Copyright wordz2Go May 2017

Proverbs 22:6 ‘Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.’

Mother’s Day 2017

Facing Mother’s Day motherless
Is frankly unnerving:
You’ve gone, yet you’re still here,
You’re here, but you’re still there,
You cannot be seen or heard,
No hug, no touch,
No physical connection,
Existing in a third dimension.

And yet, and yet:
I see you smiling in my mind,
Laughing at a silly joke,
Wobbling across the room
Holding onto the back of the suite,
Not the steadiest on your feet!
I see you playing with your grandchildren
And great grandchildren,
Dancing with your sisters –
I see your love for all of us,
Then, just in that moment,
The sky is cloudless.

Unnerving.
Quite disturbing,
How the emotion of memories
Changes motherless to mothered,
How time and space are blurred,
Events and people intermingle,
The past morphs with today
And I can say ‘Happy Mother’s Day’.

Copyright wordz2Go March 2017