Feeling emotional today, its 12 months since I lost Mam. Miss her so much and even though I know she’s in heaven its still hard. Love you Mam x
Titus 1:1-3 ‘Hope of eternal life is based on God’s promise. And God cannot lie.’
Kit
I’m so excited because
I finally have a little dog of my own
After waiting 30 years while working for a living!
We chose you Kit,
You are simply gorgeous and when you come
Out of your shell you’ll love us too.
You entered our home and heart today,
Slipped out of your travel crate
Cautiously and slowly,
Turning your head away,
Looking cute in your brand spanking new pink collar.
One tiny step at a time you came out,
Walked towards me and I was lost
In your enormous soulful eyes.
Your refusal to eat or drink worries me
But Dr. Google tells me it’s normal
And not to worry yet.
Five hours later and you’ve jumped
Onto the sofa and into my lap,
I’m in heaven!
Still not drinking
But you’ve walked inquisitively round the garden,
Scared yourself silly at the life-size plastic pigs,
Walked warily up to the large resin tortoise in amongst the herbs
And ran away from the roosting pigeons!
And so to bed. Your crate in my room.
Hope you can settle to sleep.
Welcome home little Kit.
We love you already.
Copyright wordz2Go Jun 2107
12 months on: I Know
Your cross around my neck
Has soothed my soul:
This past year,
I’ve held it in prayer,
And slowly adapted
Without you.
Walking into your room
I feel your presence;
Unseen, for now,
‘Though you’ve never left
And we were blessed,
I know.
I pictured you there
When we moved home,
Pleased for us:
Flags waving,
Cheerfully embracing,
Selfish, I know.
By the grace of God
You’ll watch from above,
Fully healed,
Running free
And though we can’t see;
I know.
Copyright wordz2Go Jun 13 2017
Titus 1:1-3 ‘Hope of eternal life is based on God’s promise. And God cannot lie.’
Children Grow
We abdicate responsibility,
Give up whole lives willingly,
Devote an excess of time to inconsequential things,
Forsake family and friends
Seeking approbation or promotion,
Confidently assured of time.
Life is worth far more than work,
Office politics drive you berserk,
Ever changing goals impossible to meet,
Time spent chasing them
Invisibly robs peace of mind
And children grow as we borrow time.
Time will only wait so long,
How can we get it so wrong?
How much time to realise our time is now,
Do more of what you love,
Regain your peace and cease;
Work less and embrace life now.
Copyright wordz2Go May 2017
Proverbs 22:6 ‘Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.’
Mother’s Day 2017
Facing Mother’s Day motherless
Is frankly unnerving:
You’ve gone, yet you’re still here,
You’re here, but you’re still there,
You cannot be seen or heard,
No hug, no touch,
No physical connection,
Existing in a third dimension.
And yet, and yet:
I see you smiling in my mind,
Laughing at a silly joke,
Wobbling across the room
Holding onto the back of the suite,
Not the steadiest on your feet!
I see you playing with your grandchildren
And great grandchildren,
Dancing with your sisters –
I see your love for all of us,
Then, just in that moment,
The sky is cloudless.
Unnerving.
Quite disturbing,
How the emotion of memories
Changes motherless to mothered,
How time and space are blurred,
Events and people intermingle,
The past morphs with today
And I can say ‘Happy Mother’s Day’.
Copyright wordz2Go March 2017
Feeling Raw
Lost in a sea of detachment,
Waves running high around,
Day runs into day,
With fears of running aground.
Time is lost in the telling,
Grief has gripped my soul,
I know you’re safe
Through God’s good grace
But it’s hard to let you go.
Guilt pulls at the anchor,
Threatens to sink the ship,
Your time was clearly close
And yet you died alone.
You slipped away so quietly,
Left us all in shock,
You went home to heaven,
My ship was on the rocks.
Sinking nearly inevitable,
Clinging tight through the ride,
My God has walked beside me,
Carried me through the tide.
Back in shallow water,
With shifting sand beneath my feet,
Grateful that my anchor held –
The storm is near complete.
In calmer seas of nine months on
You’ve birthed me once again
Your love has made me stronger
And I know I can sail on.
Copyright wordz2Go 20 March 2017
Kisses on your birthday X
Birthday Love
How far can love stretch?
To the moon and more maybe:
Perhaps as far as eternity?
How can something that lives inside me,
That has no physical entity,
Consume so much energy?
You loved me unconditionally
And that doesn’t just stop.
Today is your birthday
So we’ll stretch our love to you,
We’ll pull and pull and we won’t let go
We’ll stretch it out until you know
Just how much we miss you so.
We’ll raise a glass and pray love flows
Through time and space
To put a smile upon your face.
Happy Birthday Mam,
Missing you so much today,
Hope you’re dancing with the angels.
XXX
Copyright wordz2Go March 2017
1 Corinthians 13: ‘And the greatest of these is love’.
